I speak now to the other you, the more-than-human that you are as well. By now you know, or, more appropriately, ‘remember’ that indeed you are both, this human that you are appearing as and that ‘other’ one also, the pre-existing already in-formed entity that knows more about your truth than your human does.


There is no need to fear that you will use it up, for it is unending in that it is your source of human participation. More accurately, it is the connection to your divine, eternal truth, and it is yours, all yours.

What you do with it is up to you and most certainly this is the grandest part of the gift. It will never be taken away from you although there are certain conditions under which you will not be able to access it, and the temporary absence of it will create within you an awareness that something is wrong (or not as it could be).

In these situations it might be more appropriate to simply realize that you are not in the proper relationship or alignment to your truth and therefore immediately begin to uncover that pre-existing state you allowed to be obscured by your recent choices in the world of collective human experience.

This understanding will save you wear and tear once your truth has activated its (silent) call and your human has felt its touch.

It is inevitable that your truth will sound its call and the only real variable once this has occurred is the amount of time you – your human – will take in releasing the chosen focal points of human experience that you selected to delve into.

Because it is inevitable it should now be clear that there are no ‘wrong’ experiences to choose from, only variants on the human scale of phenomenon.

The torque you will feel comes from when you reach your predetermined limit of depth in the human experience, just as the free-diving swimmer must eventually begin their return to the surface or drown. The difference here, of course, is that the entity that you are in truth cannot cease to exist for that is only a possibility within your human experience.

And so now we can begin to see the mysterious wonder of the thought, the concept, of life and death and begin to understand its necessity for the concept of time. As one who remembered fully put it, ‘you are not what you pretend to be’ and yet you are able to pretend, to believe, anything – even the unbelievable! That is the power you possess, to breathe into any thought and in doing so, make it so! Yet all the while, that is not what you are…

Three years into the life after the tree of pain is now establishing itself as the players begin to assemble and I meet Fate head-on.

Original Memory (OM) of the Original Relationship (OR) of The Entity That I Am (TETIA) - the Entity that You Are, in Truth, The Eternal Truth (ET)... are all word games we play to tickle the real you to begin to show It-Self.
Let's get on with what it is we agreed to do this time around. Let's agree to remember that previous, already existing I Am Mind.

In this world of wonder, what should we expect to change, or much more appropriately how will we see/experience the change? It all depends on which mind we engage to see. Indeed, it is the season to ask: "Do you see what I see...?"

It's a bit graphic at times, having these memories explode to the surface, but in the mix there's another story. It might not make much sense yet, but in the details are the pieces that will reconstruct the human man that tried so hard to hide the light and the gifts bestowed upon him...

Resistance is high, but futile.
Here's my first entry after being given my assignment to review the past 40 years in an effort to recontextualize my journey to this point.
Following my Inner Guidance, IAm.

On Sunday, Dec 7, 2008 it was suggested and generally agreed upon that it was now time to wrap-up my 40-year journey by inviting the recall of each year’s highlights as the reconstruction of my Humpty-Dumpty-Post-Fall avails itself for its finishing touches.

Adam/Lynda piped-in that by using the next 40 weeks to juxtaposition the pieces into a finished portrait I might finally see all the players involved in this production in their proper perspective. Neal Erickson was present in his role as both the witness and technical, next-step coach and I began to do the math: 40 weeks from Sunday, December 7, 2008 just happens to be Sunday, September 6, 2009 – the end of 40 years since my electrocution (and later referred to as my 'execution') and my travels since falling from that tree of pain and knowledge.

Needless to say, this past week has been fraught with flashbacks and bleed-throughs, forced memories and contacts with my past. I had received a copy of my medical records several years ago (mailed in Sept, 1998 – 30 years on…) which I retrieved last night from storage. Complete with date and time of admittance (9/6/68 @ 3:53PM via Barrington Ambulance) and discharge (10/25/68 @ 11:00 AM) as well as photographs of the damage done, my mind has been rushing to fill in the blanks…

So, for the next 40 weeks I intend to re-cap each year through the lens of my current filter as well as inviting – to the best of my ability – the appropriate age set. I may eventually do it in video format, but without some more help from my friends on how to film and edit, that will have to wait. For now, I’m trusting my guide/coach Adam and his intentions as I begin to reconstruct my Self from the ashes of the past.

I offer you a seat on the bus in the hope that my journey may shed some light on our collective journey – that of returning to full memory and awareness of who we are in Truth and why we’re here after all. Adam promises it will be worth the effort…      

This is my first video podcast post using iMovie on my new MacBook addressing several questions I've received since posting my Alien Encounter episode on YouTube that came out of my work with the late Dr John Mack.
Here I'm responding to whether or not my encounter experiences ended or were they replaced by yet another level of experience...